god. i've had three damn days to get shit in order and to miraculously become the best english teacher i can be and you know what? i'm not. i didn't use my time well. i got some work done but there's a million other things i should have done, too.
i'm beginning to get it now - there is a certain under-controlness that experienced teachers exude that gets the kids in line - i don't have that yet. the under-controlness apparently comes from lots and lots of lists. lists of grades. lists of points earned for good behavior (pretty much the only way i can get them to sit down and start learning - the high school equivalent of a gold star. yes, i have to give them meaningless points to make them do anything... although the way they react it's clear that they are anything but meaningless). lists of things that were supposed to get done veteran's day weekend that actually got done.
i guess this is part of the magical process of figuring it out... but i can't help but wish i was there already, for my students' sakes and, of course, for my own.
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